If you don’t love yourself, you’ll always be chasing people who don’t love you.
I’m feeling a lot better now. Anger isn’t as bad and I’m thinking more rationally. However, still not rationally enough.
I’m getting worse. Iv started imagining killing people. Iv started imagining knocking people out. I never do this, iv never seen this. It’s like all I see is red and blood and death. I’m scared. I’m so fucking scared.
So those of you that know me know I have had a crush on a guy called Cliff for a few years now. It’s been very on and off, but right now it’s back on. It’s scaring me. We just arranged our first ever date. We have been talking for like A week straight.
I’m scared because I don’t want to be hurt and I’m sooooo scared of relationships, but I’m afraid that if we don’t make things keep going this time, it might end forever and I don’t want that.
Fucking hell. My brain really needs to stop -_-
Having an anxiety disorder is like that moment where your chair almost tips or you miss a step going down the stairs but it never stops